Sunday, August 17, 2008

I admit it. Im afraid to fail.

I don't really like to attempt things I don't think I any chance of doing well. I admit it. It may be a stupid way to go through life, but that's just the way I am. I don't like to go too far out on the limb in a lot of areas.

So a few days ago my trainer, Evil Angel Karen, mentions how she and her sister in law at one point were training for a half marathon and wouldn't that be fun. I rolled my eyes, I'm sure. Even if I managed to just roll them internally.

So yesterday she tells me how fired up she is, and I should do this. You know, I don't know Karen well, but I thought I knew her well enough that it surprised me to see she obviously smokes crack. Me? Run a half marathon? Me even walk a half marathon? Seriously. I may not be big as a house anymore, but I am the size of a small condo. But I said I'd try. Why on Earth did I say that? (One of these days I'll get better control of this mouth of mine...)

I've seen people talk about the C25K (Couch to 5K) running program and really thought I'd like to try that. Someday. Someday when I'm less fat. But that's 5k. Not a half marathon!

So I've said before, the key to being successful in weight loss is believing you are capable of doing it. And that applies to anything, really. Let me just put this out there right now: I don't believe I can do this. Not yet. But I will try.

As I was on the treadmill today I thought about a couple of things. The first is something Kevin, a fellow Weight Watcher, said to me the other day when I was whining about something. He said "Success is not always the outcome. Sometimes it's the process." I'm applying that to this situation. Success may very well not be me finishing a half marathon six months from now. Success may be the fact that I gave it everything I had to try.

Which leads me to the other thing I was thinking. Failure wouldn't be to not finish it. Failure would be to not even bother trying.


  1. You are amazing! and you can do anything you set your mind to do!

  2. Don't set yourself up for failure and psych yourself up for the experience.

    Here's a little scenario;

    Me" Hey, how's it going? What did you do this week-end?"

    You" Oh not much, just ran a half marathon,kept active.. you know, the usual stuff"

    Good luck to you!

  3. You've inspired me to get up early tomorrow to go run/walk. Thank you!

  4. Holy crap! I'm away from the gym for one weekend and you're training for a half-marathon?? You just kicked our cardio time up to a WHOLE new level, my friend.

    Not that it's a competition, of course. ;)

  5. yep.

    youre so right and I need to remember this too.

    that failure for me is NOT STARTING AT ALL.


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  7. I think all of us are afraid to fail at some point or another. But you're right, failing is to not even bother trying. I need to write that one down. :)


    There's no shame in walking part of it if need be!

    I only started running a few months ago, personally.

  9. Thanks for your thoughts that actually are able to penetrate my own thoughts and make some sense out of what should already be known!

    To put it mildly, I enjoy reading your posts, they inspire me!