Saturday, October 4, 2008

The Scale Wins Again....a little bit.

So this week I worked out more than I ever have. I didn't stuff my face with tons of extra food.

And I gained 1.6 pounds. Not .2, not .4....1.6!!! WHAT IS THAT ABOUT!!

What's worse than what the scale said, I'm embarrassed to admit that I let it ruin my attitude for the day. Yes, I still went to the gym (for two hours) and no I didn't go on a Twinkie bender, but my attitude was crappy all day. I can't tell you how many times I wanted to just burst into tears. Even hours later, out shopping, I just wanted to have a melt down. And I hate that I let it get me so down. And worse, I started to feel those old favorite put downs like "I'm worthless", "Why can't anything in my life go right", you name it, I said it to myself. Quite frankly, I'm feeling sorry for myself. You can say whatever you want, I honestly don't care how wrong it may be to feel this way. That's how I feel.

Tomorrow is a new day. That's about all I can say for myself.


  1. You probably already know this, but it sounds like you need a reminder! Weight fluctuates for lots and lots of reasons - how much water you've been drinking, how much and what kind of exercise you've been doing (and I think the increased exercise you did is what caused your scale gain), how much and what foods you ate, how much sleep you got... the list goes on, and on, and on.

    This is why I'm eschewing scales. The goal isn't to reach some "perfect" number, the goal is to practise healthy habits (which will, as it happens, lead to my being a lot thinner and healthier). If I eat sensibly each day, and am as active as I can be (energy-wise), then the day is a success. :) I've had to buy new jeans, so it must be working! ;)

    Good luck!

  2. I know how you feel! I have all those same feelings after a gain especially when you've put in the time and effort and then only to see the scale go UP!!! You just want to scream WTF!!!!! Just keep your head in "the game". My motto is it eventually has to come off! Sometimes when you workout really hard your muscles retain water! You will probably see a loss the following week.

    Keep it up! You are such an inspiration! You ARE NOT worthless!!!

  3. I don't follow too many blogs because I really just don't have the time to, but after finding yours a few weeks ago I find myself checking it now and then. I want to tell you that I come back to it because it's real, and it's human. Very few people can be so truthful about their feelings, good and bad, as you have managed to do through your writing. You're an inspiration not only because you are making all these healthy choices ie losing weight, working out, eating right, but you are an inspiration because you are so honest about your thoughts and feelings. You have a right to feel how you feel, and the reason so many people can relate to what you say is because...we have those same exact feelings. We're all human. Congrats to you on your accomplishments.