I wanted to write and let you know I think about you a lot. I think about what you're doing and why you're doing it. I wanted to remind you that you CAN do this. Yes, you've gotten a little bit sloppy over the last month or so, but that doesn't mean you can't pull it back together.
I also wanted to remind you about some of the things that got you this far, because it seems like maybe you've lost sight of some of them. (And I'm sorry if you feel like I'm calling you out, but somebody once said about you "you know when the time for empathy ends and ass-kicking begins" and I think the time for ass kicking has arrived.)
Okay first off, you've been doing too much eating without thinking lately. Stop that. It's a bad, bad habit. Also, you've gotten less selective over when you chose to indulge. Which has lead to you indulging too much. And that goes back to thinking about what you eat first. Really think about what is most worth it.
You know those things will ALWAYS be there. You don't have to have them 'just because.' You don't have to eat any more than you are hungry for, regardless of what people say. You know that. You've been doing it long enough to not lose your focus now. I know you're scared of that. But you don't have to be. Harness the fear and use it to fuel your passion to reach your health and fitness goals.
And another thing. Maybe it's time you start believing in yourself as much as other people believe in you. They all can't be stupid, you know.
Just remember, set backs are part of life. It's how you react to them that will set you apart.