In less than 48 hours I will have finished my first attempt to jog a 5K. As long as my piriformis muscle cooperates, I think I can do it. But, the flare up of the piriformis from hell a couple of weeks ago has forced me to accept that I may not be able to run the whole thing. More importantly, that if I can't, it's NOT a failure. Even if I can't for reasons not associated with pain. The failure would be letting my anxiety about it all getting the best of me and refusing to try. And unless I wake up with an indication from my back suggesting I shouldn't, I WILL TRY.
I don't know if it's true or not, but I think my unchecked anxiety feeds into the incredible pressure I put on myself for everything. Or at least it fuels my tendency to view things from the 'worst case' perspective. But, I've come to grips with that, too, and it's no longer going to be unchecked anxiety.
As much as I wish many of the events of this year could have gone drastically differently, I'm learning. From all of them.
I'm ready to make the second half of 2011 my time to shine!