Saturday, November 28, 2009

Mind games and more mind games...

I still believe I am completely incapable of doing things I know (and have proven) I am totally capable of doing.

Best examples: Every Sunday is a spin endurance class. The first three Sundays of the month are 90 minutes, the last Sunday of the month is 2 hours. Yes, spin. The very class I told myself I was too fat to try. (And by the standards I was using, I still am. And that was a year ago.) So I've been doing this endurance class most of the last year. And yet, every week I am sure I am not capable of of this class. I somehow manage to push that to the back of my head and just tell myself to try. If I can't finish the class, I can't. But I do. And yet the next week we go through the same thing.

I'm not really sure what's really going on in my head that brings this on every week. I know people look at me and would never assume I take spin, let alone an endurance class. But why do I think that about myself?


  1. I don't know, but you've proven yourself wrong for 52 weeks now...time to start believing!
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  2. I have been waiting patiently for you to start blogging again. You have been a true inspiration to me since I "met" you on the old core board. I wish you the best and hope that you will find peace soon.