I'm starting to get a little consumed with the "I can't" mentality.
I just don't know what to do anymore. Nothing is working. Nothing. Please, really please, just spare me the "but look at what you've accomplished" comments, too. Because right now that means absolutely nothing to anybody, especially me. If you haven't been in this position, you wouldn't know how it feels to bust your ass every day, EVERY DAY and get nothing in return for it. They say to eat more. I do that. Nothing. They say add more protein. I do that. Nothing. They say take rest days. I do that. Nothing. Nothing, nothing, nothing. I go to spin class this morning and truly felt like I had no business being there. None. At the start of the cool down, I quite literally had to fight back the tears. Because I just worked as hard as I could for 90 minutes of spinning and yet the message going through my head was "you're a fraud and a phoney and there is very little point trying to pretend otherwise. You're still too fat to spin."
This totally sucks.