I didn't weigh in today at Weight Watchers. I had planned on that. I made that decision, after talking with my consiglieres, because I need to find a little peace with the scale right now. And going in every week and getting a little bit of a smackdown is not bringing me peace. At all. Not any small bit of it. Yes, I know the scale isn't everything. TRUST me when I say I know that. I have now been lectured by exercise professionals, Weight Watchers staff, people who have lost a lot of weight, and my own doctor about this fact and that I should not be panicked about this, that I'm not panicked. Because I KNOW what I'm doing on my end. And I know it will catch up on the scale someday. But week after week, I go in there with such high hope that THIS IS THE WEEK I breakthrough, and when it doesn't happen, I am so deflated. I cannot begin to tell you how much it makes me feel like I'm failing at this. (And please spare me the 'no you aren't' lecture because my feelings are what the are, right wrong or indifferent.)
So I decided the scale can't have that power on me this week. And it may not next week. I'm still going to the meetings, and I'm still working as hard as I can at making the best choices. But when I'm struggling so hard right now to be able to celebrate what I HAVE accomplished, the weekly "you suck" from the scale makes that harder and harder to do.
I can totally relate. I think you are wise to let go of the scales for awhile. I now how defeated I can feel when the scales don't do what they are suppose to do. I just found you blog and love it. I find your blog very inspirational. Thanks for the posts.
ReplyDeleteI understand how you feel, good to kick the scale to the curb for awhile. I'm sorry that it makes you feel bad, I will remember you in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you're having a frustrating time with the scales. Sometimes I also have to take a break from them, and just try to maintain (both weight and sanity). I've read back a few of your blog entries, and I like your writing, and your questions are going to make me think about things. I think (from reading for 10 minutes-lame I know) that you are more sensible than some of the advice that seems to come your way.
ReplyDeleteI just wanted to let you know that I just found your blog and you are truly an inspiration. You may not think that right now, but you truly are! Don't let the scales or anything else tell you differently!
ReplyDeleteGirl, I just sat and watched your slide show of pictures of your progress, and you are one amazingly beautiful woman. And it isn't just the looks, although you have those too, But it's the light and the life in your eyes and face. Whatever your struggles this day, remember there's the strength underneath that to make it through - all of them.
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